When the doctor handed him to me, I knew it was really happening but I still couldn’t believe it. With a room full of those I love crying with me, it was real but so surreal. And now he looks at me, deep into my eyes, and smiles. And I am captivated. I can’t quit thanking God, and a lot of times I cry because I cannot believe I get to be a mom again. A mom to this sweet boy, a boy named Daniel. He’s such a gift, in so many ways, sent from God at just the right time.
When I think back to 10 years ago when all I wanted was a baby and look at now, seeing what God has done, I cannot keep it together. It’s so overwhelming and I can, today, say that the pain of infertility and miscarriages was worth it. These children were each one worth the wait, the struggle, the heartache. Joy comes in the morning, whenever that morning might be. I no longer mourn our many losses or ask God why because I know His plan for our family was and is perfect…and far better than I could’ve imagined.
With God all things are possible.
All things, everything. That thing we think is impossible and could never happen…with God is possible. That thing man says will never happen…with God it is possible. When the world tells us it will never happen, when our circumstances or past experiences paint the picture that it will never happen, we can never say never when it comes to our God. What we see with our small human eyes is nothing compared to what He can do and has planned for each one of us. Oh that we would stay in a posture of knowing that no matter what, with God all things are possible!
At 6 weeks pregnant, When I hit publish on the blogpost “And So We Wait” I immediately ran far away from my computer, sick to my stomach with anxiety at what I had just put out there. Looking back, I truly feel the prayers of many carried this baby to term. Each of you that stormed the gates of Heaven on our behalf played a special part in Daniel’s life. We thank you so much.
We are so in love, our hearts are so very full and we are having so much fun with our little gift. I give all glory to God.